that thing, that moment

i've been recently reminded of one of the best things about life: connecting with a person on a totally different level. i believe that there are certain people that are suppose to come into your life at some point, whatever the reason may be, and there is an instant connection. i'm not talking about sexual attraction, or seeing your future partner for the first time. what i'm trying to explain i don't think can actually be done with words. if you've ever had this connection with a person, you know what i am talking about.

in my life it has happened few times than i can count on one hand and the last time it happened turned into one of the friendships that i hold nearest and dearest to me. but that was about 5 years ago and until a few days ago i complete forgot about it. for some reason i had this happen to me again, in a way i would have never expected, but it feels so right. it's wierd, i barely know anything about this person, yet i am so taken back by everything they have to say. it's some wierd addiction, where you could talk all night, through the night, and still have so much left to say. i think it is what was missing in my life; finding someone who completely understands you. it feels so right to have this in my life right now.

i have decided there are 3 things that are very important for me to have a connection with a person. the first is a sense of humor. it is vital for me to surround myself with people that can make me laugh. that laughter that comes so naturally, and about everything. you can act awkward, you can make fun of the other person, everything can be turned into something to smile about. some people are very very good at portraying themselves in this way, and i am envious. one of my favorite things in the world is laying in bed with a person and having conversation that is filled with points where you are laughing so hard you are crying. it's such a comfort.

the second this is someone who is intelligent. this is going to sound horrible, but i cannot stand people who are stupid, and by stupid i mean people who do not have common sense. i dont need intelligence that comes from a diploma, or a well-respected job title, but someone who i can have a serious conversation about a religion or politics (gasp) and they aren't completely out of the loop. i'm a conversationalist. i need to be with people who can keep up with that.

lastly, and this one is the clincher, someone who has fallen in love with music. this is more important for someone that i would be involved with. i don't think i could ever date someone who wasn't passionate about music, and concerts, and discovering bands, etc. apparently my birth father was a guitarist in a band, and i believe that his love for music was passed straight to me. music just completes me. i feel like music has impacted my life in so many ways and when i find a good song or a new band it makes me a little bit of a better person.

anyways, i'm becoming more comfortable with who i am, who i want to become, and who i want to surround myself with. and it's an added bonus that i feel like i'm understood by someone who knows so very little about me.

i'm beginning to find happiness in places i didn't think it existed.